Those blows, which I’ll probably never talk about, were too much for us to overcome. I look back and think if what happened this summer happened a year or two ago, we’d probably been able to overcome it.But when you’re already falling so quickly out of love with someone, you don’t have the fight you used to.See, quite a bit has changed in my life since that last post. I spent a few weeks last month debating on whether or not I should delete this entire blog all together. No matter how many months it’s been since we both agreed to end our marriage, reading those words never gets easier.
I feel happy knowing that it won’t be long until I’m truly happy.It’ll take time, I know, but I’m taking the right steps to get there. But I needed to say it, needed to get it out there.It’s not messy, I wish him nothing but all the happiness in the world and I know one day we’ll both look back and smile. I was moving out of the house my ex and I shared and I had a hamburger. To be honest, I haven’t even had a fleeting desire to eat meat since then.Probably the second most substantial change in my recent life is my diet and my weight. I noticed it happened more when I had meat in my diet. I also can remember how I’d never felt so sick in my life those following few hours. Well, the first 2 months’ post meat were true game-changers with my appearance.And you start to see a life where you don’t have to fight to keep things together.
I respect my ex, which is why I’m going to end the divorce portion of this right now.I knew the world was changing fast, I have a ton of single friends and watched them go from dating app to dating app, trying to weed through ALL OF the frogs in search of their prince. And that’s not something he could budge on, and I totally understand that.And even in the thick of the unhappiest months of my marriage, I was never envious of them. This last one was with someone I truly saw a future with. Just like I can’t budge on not traveling, I can’t expect him to budge on distance.In a way, this is my journal and this is an entry that needed to be published months ago.For any others on Keto who know how hard it is to have a social life and practice a carb free diet, any pointers? Your workouts will blow and you wont push maximum poundages.I can’t believe it’s been over 6 months since I last updated this little corner of the internet.